From Overwhelmed to Grateful

Note: This was written in the midst of the Christmas rush and forgotten about until 10 minutes ago. Although the holiday craziness is finally over, our New Year schedule is about to take over my life and I need to force myself to slow down and enjoy the moments…always.

On the bathroom floor yesterday (I think clearly staring at the tile pattern) I decided I was in over my head…with life. I felt submerged by all this living, all this responsibility, all  this motherhood. Could the weight of it all kill a person?

On top of it all, the floor was in need of a good cleaning. I got up and moved on with my day.

Today, the weight was gone. I don’t know where it went. I don’t know when it will return,  but I’m thankful for the break.

I’m thankful.

I spent the afternoon helping my little Butterfly choose Christmas gifts for her sisters. Instead of the sadness I’ve felt lately when noticing how much she’s grown or the worrying about her future, I enjoyed her. We sat in traffic.We weaved through the crowds at the stores. There was no complaining. I treasured her laughter, her ideas and her chatter in each moment.

Now, she’s in front of me, on the other side of the kitchen island, baking up gingerbread cookies for Santa. She’s promised to share.

I am so thankful that she is in my life.

“Let us be grateful to the people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.” Marcel Proust.

So moms, if you are feeling overwhelmed by parenting or life in general, I hear you. Now step away from the big picture. Focus on the beautiful snapshot right in front of you.

{Here’s mine.}

Christmas Baking

About Amy Landisman

Professional freelance writer. Homeschool mom of three girls. Introvert and rebel. Life learner. Coffee addict.

  • Jackie

    Hi Amy,

    I think as homeschoolers we have all felt overwhelmed at one time or another. What is important is you picked yourself up and moved beyond the grit and grime. Good for you!

    Hi, my name is Jackie and I found your blog listed on the Let’s Homeschool High School’s Blog Roll. I wanted to stop by and wish you a very happy New Year. I also wanted to encourage you to join our January Blog Hop by adding a post.

    Here is the link to the Blog Hop:

    http://letshomeschoolhighschool.com/blog/2014/01/01/homeschool-high-school-january-2014-blog-hop/#.UsYEGPRPdYU

    Joyfully,

    Jackie

    Let’s Homeschool High School Admn.

  • Emily (OhBoyMom)

    Thanks for this — I have had that overwhelmed, stressed feeling more lately too and it wasn’t just holiday stress, but life stress. I too find myself worrying more about my kids’ future as they get older. My high schooler is only 2 1/2 years away from college and I know he feels the anxiety I feel for him and I want to change that. So thank you — I’m going to make that effort to focus on what’s right in front of me right now.

  • Melanie Chisnall

    Awww, Amy this is lovely. A good reminder for all of us to stop stressing about the big picture and the future and just concentrate on the here and now. It’s my goal for this year. Simplifying things and not wasting time by daydreaming, just focusing on the present… because what’s that saying? Oh yes, it’s a gift! :)

  • Karen Terry

    Beautiful. I feel this way a lot about Keilee growing up so fast. She tells me, “Mom you worry so much about me growing up that you’re going to miss me being here”. I don’t want to do that !!!!

  • Heather @ To Sow a Seed

    Absolutely true– if we let it be so. Thanks for the reminder to stop and soak it all in.

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